Tuesday, January 11, 2011

Lost in Translation

About 5 months ago, I posted about my love for the 18 months of perks. At the beginning of that post I wrote a disclaimer stating that I may come to regret what I had written. Well I can't say I "regret it", but perhaps I should have waited several more months to write it; because apparently sarcasm is lost in translation with The Man Upstairs.

You see, there was a line at the end of that post that said, "I'd get pregnant tomorrow just to not see her ugly face again." Well, I didn't get pregnant the very next day, just about exactly a month later.

Even while I was pregnant with Lily I always knew there was a number four waiting to join us, and I always wanted a number four. I just didn't want/expect them this close. Lily and this new one will be 20 months apart and it is kind of freaking me out. The other kids have been 26 and 30 months apart and the spacing has been wonderful. I was never worried going from 0 to 1 kid, 1 to 2, and 2 to 3 kids; but I am really worried about going from 3 to 4. I know there are many other situations out there that are closer and harder than mine, but I'm just sayin - these are my concerns.

And apparently Heavenly Father isn't the only one that has lost things in translation. Do you ever have those thoughts/premonitions that make you think, "This could be a possibility; a real possibility"?

When I would think about having Number 4, there was this little thought in the back of my mind (premonition, maybe) that this little baby could come sooner than later, meaning sooner than when we were planning on having them join our family. I had the thought that Lily and this baby would probably be closer than two years apart. Apparently this thought and my math calculations were lost in translation too because I didn't realize that I would have to be pregnant NOW (and four months ago for that matter). I think that maybe these thoughts/premonitions were Heavenly Father's way of warning me to prepare myself mentally for this.

But these thoughts were lost on me because I didn't prepare myself. I wasn't quite ready for the fact of being pregnant NOW. In fact, I was in denial for quite some time. I didn't even take a pregnancy test until I was three weeks late! I didn't make the pregnancy "public" until I was 15 weeks along - almost 16. I'm 19 weeks tomorrow. (Ever want a pregnancy to go by fast? Just don't tell anyone for 15 weeks. :)

Now that I have accepted the fact that Number 4 is joining our family in June, I am excited. I am excited to have another little newborn in our family. I love newborns. They are in every sense, Heaven. Pure Heaven. I am excited to have our family complete and to move on to our next adventures. Yes, there are going to be challenges and struggles and LOTS of changes (an entirely different post) with another one right now, but it will definitely be worth it. And I cannot wait to see if it is a boy or girl (although I really, REALLY think this one is a boy). Call it mother's intuition. I guess we'll find out for sure next Tuesday!!

So if you want to learn anything from my situation, I would say be careful what you ask or wish for and in the manner you wish for it. Because remember, sarcasm is lost in translation.

Oh, and in case you were wondering? Yes, the perky perks are back. And for that I am grateful.

10 comments:

The Ceder House's said...

I think the last short paragraph should be the title to this post:) You are hilarious. I am so excited for your fam. You are the Martha Stewart of all Mom's so I am not worried- you will handle this like a cake walk! Can't wait to hear what you are having!

me said...

I too am excited to find out what you are having!! CONGRATS! I know what you mean about not wanting it to happen earlier than expected. My girls are 18 almost 19 months apart and I LOVE IT! It was really hard when Brook was a newborn but after that its been really good. You really will love the age diff I think...and because you are super woman I dont think it will even phase you!

Kristin said...

Congrats...I heard a few weeks ago from the grapevine. 4 is definitely an adventure. I also think 4 is a great number to end with but my husband thinks otherwise.

Tiercy said...

Yes ash...you will handle this with grace the way you do everything. My only question, doesvthis mean no basketball?

Hafen Crew said...

You are too funny! You'll be just fine with 4. I'm glad you're enjoying your Perks :)

Hafen Crew said...

ps...Chance now tells me quite regularly that I drive him nuts! I love how Jace thinks. lol

Shannon said...

You are so funny. Glad you got your perky perks back! Newborns are definitely the best. If anybody can do this, it's definitely you!

The Turners said...

We are very excited for you! You are a "super mom!" and I'm sure that Heavenly Father knows that! I know you'll do a great job handling 4! Love ya!

Jodie said...

Four will be easy peasy for you! You are super mom!! I'm just sad that we aren't raising our kids together. Miss you bunches! Also, I'm a little disappointed that I didn't get the perky perks with any of our adoptions. I was totally jipped!

Love you!

Ty and Masha said...

If you had 3 more you would still make it look like a breeze. Congratulations! I love infants too you will have fun.